August 2020
It has been a while since someone crawled under my skin and worked their way into my mind, to the point of making me angry. Couple of weeks ago, this happened. After that day, my life has not been the same.
This was the first time, after I returned from India, that I could not see the story behind the face of someone or that inner light about a person.
When you see thru the facade of someone, and you read how they became who they have become, empathy kicks in and kindness towards that person develops. So why was I not able to accomplish this with Mr. X?
The s**t storm that is brewing in my life, out of blue, perhaps is related to what I experienced and continue experiencing that day.
The anger I feel for this person, who I believe has tapped into my shadow is fascinating. According to Carl Jung, the shadow is our personality’s unknown side.
What is even more fascinating is a poem by Rumi translated by Coleman barks:
No matter how fast you run, your shadow
keeps up. Sometimes it's in front!
Only full overhead sun diminishes your shadow.
But that shadow has been serving you.
What hurts you, blesses you. Darkness is
your candle. Your boundaries are your quest.
I also read in a passage today that if I face the light, my shadow will be behind me.
I don’t know what’s to come from my shadow, but I have to choose to either face it or face the light and ignore it. Sometimes, ignoring our unknown side, may give it more strength.
I am going to watch this new development closely, and keep you posted. Perhaps there are lessons to be learned!
AMBKJ